Well, after I blew it last night by eating my way up through my low blood sugar, I didn’t have the nerve to step on the scale and see the damage.  Honestly, I was feeling crappy enough by being that low and to guilt from the # on the scale this morning seemed like cruel and unusual punishment, so I’m going to try to eat really smartly today and then step on tomorrow.  Probably flawed thinking on my part, but it’s what I’m doing…!

Food:
Breakfast:  1/2 c eggbeaters, 2 sl light wh toast, 8 sprays ff butter, cinnamon, coffee with 1 tbsp sf/ff creamer

Lunch:  salad with mushrooms, tomatoes, 1/2 c northern beans, bacon bits

Dinner:  Cold Packed Deer Meat (new thing my MIL shared with us – it looks craptastic in the jar, but I’ve heard it’s really good!) over 1/3 c barley; green beans

Exercise:  Cardio DVD (40 mins)

Each day I work to control my blood sugars, my food intake, my students, my thoughts, my exercise, my school work…. blah blah blah. Is it any wonder that I tend to let something go each day? Yesterday it was my school work; I brought home a pile of papers to grade and a lesson to review and I did zilch! Of course that makes for a more harried day today, but I did take some time to relax last night, so maybe it’s worth it in the end.

I do like to plan out my meals, but on Wednesday night my planned meal – which I ate all of stubbornly – wasn’t really the best for me since it left me feeling really, really full. I love being full, but I’ve learned that it’s better if I end a meal feeling satisfied instead of full. That’s probably one of the hardest feelings for me to recognize because I’ve usually taken insulin for a certain amount of carbs, so I feel like I should eat a certain amount of carbs regardless of how full I am. I know that I can take less insulin upfront and give the rest later, but I always tend to forget that concept when I’m getting ready to eat dinner. I honestly can’t remember how I approached a meal before I was diabetic, which was only 6 years ago. I can’t remember if I stopped when I was satisfied or if I stopped when my plate was clean. How can I forget something that was only 6 years ago?

One thing I know I need to work on now is to try to eat only until I am satisfied at dinner, my most difficult meal of the day in terms of carbs, calories, etc! Hopefully if I focus more on listening to my body I’ll have an easier time stopping when I’m satisfied instead of plowing ahead and eating until I’m on the brink of being too full.

Weight: 135
Food:
Breakfast: 1/2 c eggbeaters, 1 tbsp bacon bits, 2 sl light ww toast, 8 sprays ff butter, cinnamon; coffee with 1 tbsp sf/ff cream
Lunch: Tossed greens with 1/2 c northern beans, 1 tbsp bacon bits; diet pepsi, 5 tootsie rolls (midgets), light cheese stick
Dinner: 2 ff hot dogs, 1/2 c northern beans, tossed salad (with cucumbers, mushrooms, tomatoes, and 2 tbsp light Thous. Isl. drsg), light yogurt with 2 tbsp slivered almonds and cinnamon
Snack: ff lays chips, cheese stick
Exercise: 40 minutes run/walk interval; 20 minutes ab workout

UPDATE:  Well, I was doing quite well until about 2 hours after dinner….  my blood sugar was 74, and I still had 1.7 units left, but I entered the 74 bs in my pump and put in for 13 carbs for a pudding cup (sf/only 60 calories!) and thought that the pump wouldn’t let me bolus if I didn’t need the insulin… however, it showed me that I needed 0.7 to cover the carbs so I took that.  About 1/2 hour later I felt “funny” so I checked my blood sugar and rang in with a blood sugar of 47, so I ate a granola bar (16 carbs, 90 calories), a light string cheese, a handful of peanuts (ugh!  Why did I do that?) so I felt like I totally blew my diet for the day!!!   I tend to go on an eating rampage when I’m low, and this was no different.  UGH!!!

Eating after you’re already full.  

 Last night after I ate my salad, I was full and content.  However, I had taken insulin for my stuffed pepper, so I ate the stuffed pepper.  Makes perfect/no sense right?  Ugh.   I should know by now to take a conservative bolus at the beginning of a meal and then to take additional afterwards if I eat more carbs than I first planned on.  I should know that, but I still seem to enjoy using the excuse that I “have” to eat more after I’m satisfied because I took insulin to cover the carbs.   

Weight:  136

Food:

Breakfast:  1/2 c eggbeaters with 1 tbsp bacon bits; 2 slices light wheat toast with 8 sprays fat free butter and 1/2 tbsp cinnamon; coffee with 1 tbsp sugar free, fat free creamer, 1 water
Lunch:  Lean Cuisne Entree, 5 mini midget Tootsie Rolls (gotta have my sweet bite!), diet pepsi, 2 waters
Dinner:  Chicken breast over large salad, water, yogurt with 2 tbsp slivered almonds, cinnamon, 2 slices light wheat bread
Snack: light string cheese, 1/4 c sunflower seeds in shells, 1/2 green pepper

Exercise:  Pilates DVD (40 minutes)